to be good or not to be good...nk jd baik atau x jd baik

well this is my first posting which im gonna use a mix of english and malay..im getting bored reading my posting in one language only..jadi sekarang sy nk campur aduk...so please give ur comment if u like it or not..jd tajuk kali ini adalah nk jadi baik atau xnk jd baik...itu adalah soalan yg bermain di kepala otak sy ni...semenjak belajar di uitm segamat ni sy dh belajar byk bende..mostly about people's behaviour...sy dh tgk byk ragam manusia yg kita anggap sbg kwn pastu bertukar menjadi duri dlm daging kita..kwn yg kita anggap dia berniat baik nk berkwn rupanya mengambil kesempatan keatas kita...that's what makes me realize that i cannot be the person i was was before i came to uitm..for instance i want to give example but im not gonna tell who that person is...anyway org yg sy nk cite ni telah mengambil kesempatan keatas kesanggupan sy utk membuat keje org lain..ni berlaku masa part 2(biasalah part 2 still naive lg)...dimana masa tu kene siapkan assignment...dateline tggl seminggu je..sy dh siapkan bhgian sy but another 2 of my x group mate didnt do theirs..so here i come to save the day...typing until the wee hours in the morning...and then asking for an extension date because i couldnt finish all of it..next occurs when new batch of part 1 enter..well at first they were ok because they didnt dare to enter my room because sy dan arafat masa 2 bengang sgt kt diaorg..sbb diaorg pg buat bday celebration(korg taulah mcm mana bday celebration 2..mandi air sampah pastu lari sana sini..mcm monyet)anyway lepas part 1 diaorg masuk part 2...ni yg mendtgkan masalah..maklumlah dh naik part 2..kepala pun naiklah..masa 2 sy baru buat celcom broadband..i mean i dont care if you wanna use the internet to do ur assignment or just for leisure but for god sake man try to be considerate of the people in the room..they were online until i dont know what time but they were making alot of noise...me and arafat couldnt sleep...bengang je...dahlah kelas pkl 8 pagi...and finally i never told anybody this but i guess i should tell somebody sebelum sy jadi gilo...a friend of mine who i befriended for sometime is well to my point of view is taking advantage of me..i mean i dont see him taking advantage of his other friends..situasinye begini...ada sekali tu masa nk mkn tgh hari dia xde duit..so sy kesian kan dia sy bglah pinjam..duit tu x byk sikit je...lepas dia dh ada duit sy mintaklah..mcm biasalahkan..tp dia boleh ckp x payahlah..anggap sy blanje dia..so sy x kisahlah..jumlah pun x byk...but from that point onwards i made up my mind not to loan him any money..what pisses me off is when he is out of money and he want money he ask like we're royalties..promising this and that..but after that when we want the money back he puts us off like we're some unknown person..that is what i dont like...if you make a loan or a promise with somebody(melainkan janji tu memudaratkan anda)tolonglah bayar balik atau tunaikannya(and there are other stuff that occurs but i dont wanna get into it also)...because to gain a person's trust isnt easy...but to lose it is a simple as blinking ur eyes...i want to make the best out of the friendship that i have right now..tp tulah perkara mcm ni yg membuatkan sy rasa malas nk mempertahankan persahabatan ni..i dont need wealth or other material things and it is not suppose to be the purpose of your friendship either..i just need true friends who i can count on when i need them the most..so mcm sy dgr dari ceramah utk viva analysis pg tadi..semuanya berbalik kepada niat..kalau kita ikhlas berkwn then the friendship will last longer kalau x then perang mulut jelah nnt..anyway semua yg sy bgtau ni bknlah dgn niat nk memburuk atau mengaibkan org but just my view and opinion and also to advise so that we may change for the better..mmg betul yg kita punye characteristic yg membuatkan kita special dari yg lain tp kita kene ingat kalau characteristic kita tu membuatkan org lain sakit hati apa gunanya..so tulah nk jadi baik masalah nk jadi x baik pun masalah..susahkan dunia ni..tp mcm quotation from mother theresa...life is a challenge,confront it...life is life,fight for it...so kalau korg ada yg berubah hati dulu baik skrg jd mcm entah xtau nk kata apa silalah cite...it will really help us to grown into a better person..